One Month Old!!!

On Wednesday, Brooke turned one month old!! I can't believe how fast this month has gone! Many people said to cherish every minute while they are babies because it goes so fast...I now truly believe that!!

This month has been an amazing one, but it has also been quite a challenging one. I've had a lot going on with me, and trying to get used to having a newborn in the house has made for an exhausting and overwhelming month. As I said in the previous post, I had been on some antibiotics. Well, apparantly my body was resistent towards those, so the infection that I had got worse. I woke up around 2:30am one morning to feed Brooke and noticed a horrible pain in my lower back. The pain continued to get worse as the day went on and I aslo started running a high fever and had the chills. I called the doctor and they did all kinds of things to figure out what was going on. In the end, I found out I had two infections and needed TWO different antibiotics! I had already stopped breastfeeding because of the previous meds, but I was still pumping...hoping to go back to it once I stopped taking the medication. Now I was on even more drugs! So, I have finally come to the decision to stop pumping, which means no more breastfeeding. This was very hard for me to give up for a few reasons. For one reason, Brooke has not been doing that great on formula. She is way more fussy and has had lots of tummy aches. It has really made me extremely sad to know that I can not provide for her the way I should be...and because of me, she is having all these tummy problems. I know it's not my fault for getting the infections, but I still feel so upset about the situation. The other reason I found it difficult to give up breastfeeding was because it was the last little bit of "pregnancy" I was experiencing. Even though I was soooo ready to be done being pregnant there at the end, it is really strange not being pregnant, and I kind of miss it! BUT, I have this beautiful little girl that I can actually hold in my arms and look at every single day now!! I am finally done with my antibiotics and am starting feel a little bit back to normal. Hopefully things will stay that way. I had been in so much pain lately and realized that I hadn't had a "pain-free" day in months! Well, I have finally had a day with no pain, so that shows me right there that I will soon be feeling back to normal! FINALLY!

Although we don't go to the doctor again until next week, we know that little Brooke has been growing! She no longer fits into the very first set of premie outfits we had for her! There are still some premie outfits she does fit into and even a few newborn onesies!! YAY! The newborn onesies are still a bit big on her but she is slowly growing into them. I will be soooo excited when she finally fits into her newborn dresses!

Right now, Brooke doesn't do much other than eat, sleep and cry! She is starting to get a little bit of a schedule down though. She's usually awake with me during the day from noon till about 4 or 5. Then, she usually sleeps during the evening, then wakes back up at night around 9ish. And then, around midnight she's out for the night...with the exception of feedings every 2.5-3 hours! When Brooke is awake, she likes to look around and stare at things, but not for long! After only a little time awake, she starts getting fussy. During the day, Brooke sometimes gets a little fussy for about an hour or so in the early afternoon and then she has a real big fussy episode every night around 9-10...and it usually lasts until midnight! I'm reallllly hoping she doesn't have colic!! But, she has all the signs. We will just have to ask Dr. Hogarth next week to know for sure. She's also getting that baby acne...I feel so bad for her!! She's got the face of a teenager! :(

Last weekend, Reagan and I were able to get out of the house for a few hours to have a date! We went to eat Mexican food and I was able to have my first margarita since December!! It was yummy! :) After that, we went over to the Town Square to walk around. There was a guy playing music, but as soon as we parked and walked over, he was just finishing up. So, we decided to just walk around and look at all the new places that have opened up. It was so nice just to get out of the house and get some fresh air! Next weekend is Reagan's birthday and he is wanting to go out all night with some friends...so Brooke may have her very first "slumber party" with her grandparents! I'm not too sure how I will do going all night without her...

I have a couple of videos that I'd like to post, but for some reason it takes like hours to upload a video on here. Maybe my computer is too slow, I don't know. But, maybe I'll be able to upload them this weekend if I get some free time to do so. Keep checking back!