8.31.2009

Brooke is here!!!


WARNING: VERY LONG POST… :)

Well, I’ve been trying to get on here every day since we got home from the hospital, but I’m sure you all understand that we’ve been pretty busy! So, for those who’ve been wondering about Brooke’s birthday, here you go!


On Thursday, August 20th, I stopped taking my Procardia. I took one dose in the morning and that was it! I went to work and did some last minute things in my classroom so my sub would be ready for the first day of school. I started having quite a few contractions, so I left school and went home thinking “tonight’s the night!” …well, the contractions spaced apart once I was home and resting, so nothing happened! I had gone ahead and taken the next day off of work because I was just so exhausted and again I thought I’d be going into labor anytime now.

So, the next day was Friday and I slept in since I wasn’t going to work. I was still having contractions but they were about 15 minutes apart. I ended up doing a lot of housework and a lot of walking, thinking it would help bring them closer together…again, nothing happened! This night was “Meet the Teacher Night” at TWE and since I hadn’t gone into labor yet, I thought it would be good to go ahead and meet some of my students along with my sub. While at school that evening I got to meet about 15 of my 19 students! I was a little worried that the parents of my students would be upset that I would be gone at the beginning of the year, but they were actually very supportive! I think it was good that they were able to meet both me and my substitute at the same time. During this event, I noticed my contractions were getting MUCH stronger and were quite painful. When it was time for everyone to go home, a huge storm came through. Our power had gone out at our house, but my parents still had power…so Reagan and I went over there. While we were there, my contractions continued and were getting closer and closer…about 7 minutes apart. Once we realized our power had come back on, we went home and immediately began packing some last minute items into our hospital bags. By this time my contractions were 3-4 minutes apart. I decided to sit down and have a snack before we called the doctor since I knew they wouldn’t let me eat once I got to the hospital. Well, as I sat for about 30 minutes, my contractions started to slowly spread apart!! I couldn’t believe it! I timed my contractions for almost 4 hours that night and then finally gave up when they were 11 minutes apart. I was sooo sick of having painful contractions! How many more days was this going to go on?! So, I went to bed and got a good night sleep…and I once again said to myself “maybe it will be tomorrow”…

The next morning (Saturday), Reagan and I decided we needed to get out of the house. Maybe that would help move things along! At this point we were willing to try anything. School was starting Monday and I sure didn’t want to go to work with all of these painful contractions! So, we drive out to Katy and eat at a really yummy Mexican food restaurant to see if the spicy foods would help :). Then, we went to Katy Mills Mall…during tax free weekend…to go do some shopping. The whole time we were out, I was timing my contractions! They were about 10-15 minutes apart all day. Later on that evening once we were back home, Gretchen and Lindsey stopped by. They were as ready as we were to get little Brooke out of me! So, we all decided to go for a walk around the neighborhood. When we got back, we got out some chips and salsa! However, the salsa was actually kind of sweet, so Reagan went on a hunt to find something to spice it up. He ended up finding chili paste from Pei Wei!! So, I added it to my salsa and BOY did it make my mouth feel like it was on fire! Well, I guess I can be one to say that spicy foods really do work!!!! About 2 hours later my contractions were extremely strong, very intense, and were getting closer and closer. By this time, Lindsey had already gone home, but Gretchen was still at our house, so she got to witness everything!! We called the doctor and they said to go ahead and make our way to the hospital…hoping this would be our FINAL visit!!! Yay!!

We got to the hospital at about 1am. The nurse checked me and said I was 4cm dilated, so they were going to admit me! What a relief!! Throughout the night, my contractions continued, but I was not dilating. By this time it was early Sunday morning, and Dr. Patel was on call. He gave the go-ahead for the nurse to start me on Pitocin to get my labor to progress! I couldn’t believe it! After 5 weeks on bedrest for preterm labor, I’m having to be induced! Oh well, at least that means she was for sure going to be born that day! They started my Pitocin at about 8am. At this time, we decided we needed to call our parents! We had been waiting until morning because we knew if we had called them when we first got to the hospital they wouldn’t have been able to sleep. We wanted to wait until things were progressing before we got everyone all excited.

It didn’t take long for the Pitocin to start working. My contractions started getting closer and stronger. I knew I was planning to get an epidural and since the anesthesiologist was down the hall giving another patient an epidural, I decided to go ahead and get mine as well. Actually, I probably would have waited a little longer, however the anesthesiologist said he was going home…so it was either now or much later! I was so nervous about the epidural but it actually was not bad at all! Just one little sting and then some weird pressure in my back, but once it was done, I felt GREAT! My whole belly and legs were numb and I couldn’t even tell that I was having contractions.

I had a fantastic nurse during my delivery. She was so nice and helpful. She continued to check me often to see if I had dilated any more, but I was kind of stuck at 5cm for a long time. Dr. Patel came in and did something…not sure what!...and then I was dilated to 6cm. Then a little while later I was fully dilated! It was about 3:30pm at this time and I had noticed that my “numbness” in my legs had kind of gone away. There was a little button I could push to give me an extra shot of pain medicine, so I kept pushing it! I wasn’t having any pain from my contractions, so I thought pushing the button was doing the trick even though I wasn’t numb like before. Well, about 20 minutes later, it was time to start pushing! Dr. Patel wasn’t back yet, but the nurse was going to have me start pushing so that when he arrived, he could deliver my baby. Well…I had done my research on how long a woman is usually pushing before the baby arrives…and a lot of the answers I had seen said that it usually takes around 30 minutes or so. Well, after about 20 minutes of pushing, I asked my nurse if I had made any progress, and her answer was that I had made about a centimeter of progress! Oh boy, this was going to take a lot longer than I’d expected! I was already extremely exhausted and I was starting to feel a lot of pain. My nurse had me rest a little bit in between some pushes. I was so exhausted that when I rested, I started to feel myself passing out. I forced myself to keep my eyes open. The pain by this time was so intense. I couldn’t believe how bad this hurt! I thought the epidural was supposed to help at least a little bit! I was given oxygen, but I still felt like I couldn’t breathe. I could tell Reagan was worried…I kept asking him if he was okay! He continued to give me ice to chew on, and then I had to ask him to start rubbing the ice all over my face! Apparently my little Brooke was considered a “back-slider”…I would push and push and push, her head would get closer and closer, but then when I stopped pushing to take a breath, she would “slide” back in!!! OUCH is all I have to say. FINALLY after about an hour and a half of pushing, Dr. Patel arrived!! Thank goodness…maybe he could help get this little girl out of me. In between pushes, he tried telling jokes to distract me…ha! That didn’t work. Then he started to get serious and was telling me “Get mad Amy!” So I did. I have to say that this was BY FAR the worst and most extreme pain I have EVER endured in my life. I felt EVERYTHING. It basically felt as if my epidural had worn off and I was going at this naturally. While pushing, I had two nurses in the room…one on each side of me. They both had their arms across my stomach and were pushing on my belly to try to help get her out. I seriously thought I was going to pass out and wake up in an operating room or something! I don’t mean to scare my pregnant friends…I was even told by my nurse that this was NOT a normal delivery! So, after getting mad and asking our good Lord to give me strength, our little Brooke Nicole finally was born at 6:13pm after over 2 hours of pushing!! I was so relieved! Reagan was going to cut the cord, but because of all the distress being placed on her, she came out blue and purple and had to be given to the nurses right away. I kept thinking “is she okay?” but then we finally heard her cute little cry!! I could hear everyone in the hallway scream! (All of our family and friends were outside my door listening to everything going on!) You know, when you see on movies or tv, right after the woman has the baby, she kisses her husband…well I did, however instead of saying “I love you” I told him “That was the worst pain I’ve ever been in, I am NEVER doing that again!” I’m sure he loved hearing that! Brooke weighed 5 pounds, 6 ounces, and was 17 inches long. The nurses had to do all kinds of things to Brooke and it seemed like forever until I was able to see her, but when I did, I could tell she was the most beautiful little thing I’ve ever seen! I finally got to hold her after a while and then all of our family and friends came in a few at a time to meet her. I knew I looked HORRIBLE, but I didn’t care!! I was so happy to finally have her in my arms.

Over the next two days we had lots of visitors to see Brooke. It was so much fun introducing her to everyone. We also found out that Brooke was jaundice so she was going to have go under the bililights for 24 hours. The hospital let us “board in” while she was under the lights so we didn’t have to go home even though I had technically been discharged. All of the nursing staff at the hospital was just fantastic. They were all so nice and kept asking how Brooke was doing. I feel like I got to know quite a few of the nurses there! On Thursday, we were finally able to take Brooke home! Her jaundice levels had gone down! We were so excited. We put her in a new outfit and made our way home. My mom was waiting at the house and got some good pictures as we showed Brooke her new home. Brooke is such a good baby! She finally got the eating thing down and is now on a schedule of every 2-3 hours. In between feedings, she mostly just sleeps. She is so cute when she’s hungry…she likes to suck on her hands and fingers!

We went back to see Brooke’s doctor today and were given good news! Her weight is now 5 pounds, 8 ounces, which means she’s gained 2 ounces. The doctor said it usually takes babies 2 weeks to get back to their birth weight, but Brooke did it in 8 days and gained extra! She is now 17 and three-fourths inches long. I felt so bad for my little girl, though. She was probably traumatized by this doctor visit! As soon as we got there, they completely undressed her to weigh her, the dr. was poking all over her body, and then she had to get a heel prick for a blood test! She had her little fingers wrapped around one of mine and as soon as the nurse pricked her heel, her grip tightened so much around my finger. She started crying so much and she had tears running down her face! I stayed strong and didn’t cry…I just kept trying to comfort her and kiss her forehead. Poor baby girl! The whole way home, she had this look on her face like “what did you do to me mom?” (see the picture!) I felt so bad! It’s a good thing we don’t go back for another 3 weeks!

Whew…that took forever to write. Even though it’s super long, I’m sure I left out a lot of stuff about Brooke’s birthday. Although it was the most painful experience of my life, it was the absolute BEST day of my life as well. It is something I will truly never forget and will cherish the rest of my life. I hope you all get to meet our little gift from Heaven one day!

8.13.2009

Putting on the Pounds...

Today we went to see Dr. Gei, who is the high-risk doctor we've been seeing to keep track of Brooke's growth. We saw him about 3 weeks ago and Brooke's estimated weight was 3 pounds, 7 ounces. Which, at that time, she had gained a pound and a half in 5 weeks...not so great. Well, when we were there today, she had gained about a pound and a half in THREE weeks!! Her estimated weight at this point is 4 pounds, 13 ounces. She is still very tiny for her age. The average baby at 36 weeks is about 6 pounds...so Brooke is actually only in the 5th percentile for her weight. However, Dr. Gei said he was very happy to see that she has kept a constant growth over the last three weeks and she is still looking very healthy. They were originally considering having me induced at 37 weeks (unless she came on her own!) if her growth hadn't improved. But, the way things look at the moment, Dr. Gei says there is no need for that and we will let her come naturally whenever she decides to!

I have a feeling that part of her slow weight gain had to do with the stomach parasite that I had back in May. I had lost weight during all of that and was very sick, so I'm sure it affected Brooke too. She now seems to be right on track as far as how much weight she should be gaining. All the books say that she should be gaining a half a pound a week right now, which she has done over the last 3 weeks! So, next week on Wednesday I will be taken off the Procardia. Chances are, I will go into labor very soon after, if it's anything like what happened last time! That means that if Brooke stays on this track of gaining half a pound a week, she will be over 5 pounds at birth. I know that is still very small, but it makes me feel a lot better knowing she will have passed the 5 pound mark!

It was so neat to see Brooke on the screen! The technician even showed her to us in 4/D! We could see her yawn
ing and sticking out her tongue! She is so beautiful! We did get a little glimpse for a picture, but it's nothing compared to what we saw on the screen. Brooke kept putting her hand in front of her face (just like last time!) so it was very hard to get a good picture. My computer does not work with our scanner, so I just took a picture of it with my camera, therefore the quality doesn't look so good. You will notice in the picture that she has her little fingers near the left side of her face and it almost looks like she's sticking out her tongue just a tad bit. Reagan and I definitely think now that she has his nose!! We can not wait to see her in real life!!

Thank you to everyone for all of your love, support, and prayers!!! Please continue to pray for little Brooke~pray for pounds!! :)

8.12.2009

Brooke's Room!

Okay, so Reagan and I are pretty much done with the nursery...there are just a few more things to hang up. We want to find a pretty mirror to go above the dresser, so right now that spot is bare. I decided to upload the pictures to flickr because the last few times I've put pictures on my blog, some of them enlarge when you click on them, and some don't. I haven't quite figured out why it does that...



Yesterday I had a visit with Dr. McDonald and another BPP test. Everything looked good on the BPP test and I was once again contracting away!! Dr. M checked me and said I hadn't dilated any further so the Procardia was doing it's job. She also said to keep taking it until next Wednesday and then I can OFFICIALLY stop! And, if Brooke decides to come as soon as I stop the medication, they will NOT try to stop her any more! Thank goodness! I am so tired of going to the hospital! I'm so ready to meet this little girl...she keeps teasing us!!

Tomorrow I will go back to see Dr. Gei to see how much Brooke has grown over these last 3 weeks. I had sooo many dreams about this last night because I've been so anxious to know. In one of my dreams, she had only gained about half a pound and we were very worried. I kept thinking, how on earth has she not gained any weight, while I on the other hand have gained EIGHT pounds in these last 3 weeks!! (by the way, the 8 pounds I'm referring to really DID happen, that was not a dream!) My other dream was that she was a whopping 6 pounds...which I don't think she is cause my belly hasn't gotten that big over 3 weeks and I don't know if it's even possible for her to have doubled her weight in that short amount of time! We are just hoping for a good 5 pounds. Well, I will write another post tomorrow to let yall know what the official number is! Please pray for pounds!! :)

8.07.2009

What a Night...

Well...where to begin? I guess I can start off by saying that last night was definitely one of the more emotional nights I've ever been through. As you may have read in my last post, Dr. McDonald had wanted me to stop taking the Procardia and said that if Brooke decided to come after getting off the medication, we will let her come! Well, I stopped taking the Procardia Wednesday night. My last dose was at 7:30. Not even twenty-four hours had passed when I began having consistent contractions at about every 15 minutes. At that time, they weren't really anything to worry about since they were still so far apart and I wasn't in any pain, just a little uncomfortable. As the night went on, the contractions began to get closer and closer. Eventually they were coming at about every 8 minutes. Reagan and I already had a bag packed, but we had some last minute things that still needed to be put in the bag. So, we decided to go ahead and get all of that together and call Dr. McDonald. She said to go ahead and make our way to the hospital. At that point, I got pretty nervous, while Reagan got very excited! We were going to have a baby! ...or so we thought.

When we got to the hospital, they took me into the triage room to see how far along I was. When the nurse examined me, she said I was still about 2-3cm dilated...the same as when I saw Dr. M on Tuesday. So, she called the doctor to see what we should do. I was still having continuous contractions about every 7-8 minutes. Well, when the nurse came back in, she said Dr. M had told her to give me a shot of Terbutaline to stop my contractions... Reagan and I were instantly confused. She had just told me Tuesday to stop taking Procardia, even though she knew I was dilated and having labor contractions!! AND, she told me that it was very possible that Brooke would be here this week. So, WHY on earth is she trying to stop them AGAIN?? I understand that I am only 35 weeks along, but don't tell me that it's okay to have her and then two days later turn around and say "NO, we have to keep her in your belly". I put all of my trust in the doctors I see, and this action of hers made me wonder what was going on and why she was doing this. Anyways, we asked to speak with Dr. M directly before the nurse gave us any medication. Dr. M said that since I wasn't dilated anymore than when she last saw me, we needed to try to stop the contractions because they weren't putting me into full blown labor yet. She gave us a few options...1.) take the Terbutaline 2.) Take the Procardia or 3.) go home and see what happens... Well, I had JUST gotten to the hospital, so I began to think "what if we got here too early and what if I start to dilate once the contractions get even closer?" So we decided to wait at the hospital to see if anything changed. The nurse said she would come back to check me in an hour and if I hadn't dilated, we would go from there. So...after about an hour, when she checked me, I was a full 3cm dilated. This appearantly wasn't enough, and I certainly didn't want to go home because I was now in pain as my contractions started to get closer together! So, we decided to just stick with Procardia. We were taken to an L&D room for the night for observation. Not long after I was in there, my contractions intensified soooo much! I just knew that this was labor pains I was feeling, however I had just taken the Procardia! So, now the labor I was probably going into, was now being stopped by medication. Once the medicine took its full effect, the contractions had spaced out to about 6 minutes apart and weren't as instense, but still a bit painful. I just kept thinking...if I hadn't taken the medicine, we'd probably be in full blown labor by now! This was bittersweet, though...I so badly was ready to welcome Brooke into our lives, but I knew it was best for her to stay put as long as she could...and at the same moment, I was so mad at my doctor! If she had just kept me on the Procardia, NONE of this would have happened! I wouldn't have had to go through this roller coaster of a night. My nurse came back in at around 6:30am for my next dose of Procardia. I asked her to check me just to see if anything had changed because of those really intense contractions I had had before the medicine kicked in. When she checked, I was a good 3.5cm dilated, 80% effaced and she could feel the bag of waters. So, again, I wonder if I hadn't taken the meds, would we have had a baby? I guess we will never know...

Later on that morning, Dr. M came in to see me. She said I should probably go ahead and take the Procardia until I am 37 weeks along...should have told me that TUESDAY!!! She did say that I could go home and not take anything, but why would I want to put myself through this mess agian. Doesn't make any sense to me. So, needless to say, Reagan and I have been an emotional wreck today. I've cried so much today, all from only getting one hour of sleep, being mad at my doctor, and being disappointed about not getting to meet Brooke...although I know that this is best for her. This whole experience has made me lose some of my trust in my doctor unfortunately. I put my health and the health and life of my baby in her hands and trust her to make professional decisions on what's best for us. However, going through all this has put me under so much stress and confusion that I don't think I can completely trust what she wants us to do from here on out. I know this will all work out in the end, and we will have a beautiful baby girl to bring home with us, but for right now, I am very upset with how things have turned out. So, now I'm back at home, still having contractions, but taking the Procardia for the next 2 weeks. I hope that my next visit to the hospital will finally be for the birth of Brooke!!!!

8.05.2009

35 Weeks & 2-3cm Dilated!

Our little family is about to get bigger!


Yesterday, I had my weekly appointment with Dr. McDonald and my biophysical profile exam. The BPP test was first again, so I got all hooked up to the monitors. I was watching the paper roll out of the machine and realized that I was having contractions...but I was not feeling ANYTHING!! Normally, with the Braxton-Hicks contractions, I feel my belly get very tight, but this time I didn't feel a thing. No pain, or anything!! I also noticed that according to the machine, I was having these contractions every few minutes and they appeared to be very big. I started thinking something was wrong with the monitor...maybe it wasn't positioned right, or it was broken! :) When the technician came back in to check on me, her eyes got real big and said "are you feeling all of these contractions?"...I said "no, not at all!" So, she took me off the monitors, and it was time for my quick ultrasound check. Once that was done, she took me to see Dr. McDonald. As soon as Dr. M saw me she said that I was having labor contractions and needed to examine me! She said I was already dilated to 2-3cm and that Brooke could very well be here this week! I asked Dr. M. when I should call her, since I can't feel the contractions I'm having now, how will I know when I'm going into labor?? She said as soon as I notice pain and feel any contractions that are coming on regularly, I need to call. I was really excited when I left, but nervous at the same time. Yesterday was me and Reagan's 2 year wedding anniversary and we were really hoping she wouldn't make her appearance on our anniversary! We want her to have her own special day and not have to share it with mommy and daddy. Well, obviously nothing happened last night, so now I feel like it's just a waiting game! I know that many women go weeks being only a few cm. dilated, but Dr. M did not check me the last 2 weeks that I saw her...so who knows how long I've actually been dilated!

I've still been taking the Procardia, so the fact that I'm contracting and dilating while on it, makes me think that as soon as I stop taking it, I may very well go into labor. Well, I'm actually supposed to stop taking it today! I am going to try to slowly get off of it by only taking a couple doses today, and maybe going ahead with one dose tomorrow morning. Not sure if doing it this way will make any difference, but we will try it! I'd much rather her wait until the end of the week to arrive, if she decides to wait until then! As for now, I am taking things very easy and will let everyone know if anything new happens!


Taken @ 34 weeks